My Rant

After everyone's advice (which I thank you for), I did end up taking Leon to the doctor's office yesterday and the only real conclusion that was made is that Leon's doctor is an idiot. I know those are harsh words to say about someone, but I honestly didn't realize how stupid and unsensitive doctors can be until yesterday. Needless to say I'll be finding a new one.

I went in to this appointment having lots of questions and concerns I wanted to discuss with the doctor. I was prepared to talk about it too. I had a list. When she came in, she automatically started examing Leon and didn't even ask me what the problem was. I HAD to TRY to talk to her about it. I tried telling her that I thought he may be teething. All she said was that it was very unlikely and that babies don't teeth until they're 6th months old. She didn't even look at his gums. She probably sent a total of three minutes with us until she left and sent the nurse in to do an ear test. The whole time I was in utter shock that my son and I were being treated this way. I didn't know what to do. They said that Leo had a lot of build up in his ears and that they wanted to treat him as if he had an ear infection. I'm still puzzled. I can't believe I payed for such bad service. I talked to my dad today about it and he told me that I shouldn't have put up with that. I'm such a push over. Well, I'll tell you right now, never again!!!! I realize that I should have spoken up. We'll go back in three weeks to have his ears checked out again and that will be our last time. I plan on telling the doctor why we are leaving. You know, not once since we've been going to her has she ever asked us if we have any questions. NOT ONCE! She also doesn't listen. Not good qualities for a doctor, especially for a well known pediatric doctor in the Lafayette area. I realize it could have been a busy day for her but that doesn't rationalize any of it.

Well anyway, Leon is doing much much better. Yesterday was rough but he seems to almost be back to normal. I still don't know if he is teething but I guess sometimes you never know for sure. Hopefully I'll find a good doctor this time around. Thanks everyone for your comments. They were super helpful and although my doctor's visit was a bad one I'm grateful that I went.

Teething? Already?

It's 8:15 in the morning. I'm exhausted. I've got Leo in one arm asleep and praying he just will stay like this for a little longer. Why, you ask? I'm afraid that when he wakes up that I'll have another 10 minutes of uncolsolable crying and screaming before he even begins to calm down. It's been like that for the last two mornings but today it started much earlier at 5:00 am and was much much worse. After two to three weeks of getting up 3-5 times night I thought I should do something to try some online tips to get him to sleep. But this morning, I decided to look deeper into the this problem. So, I looked up signs of infant teething and my conclusion is that at three months of age my sweet little baby has been turned into what a feared most, a not so sweet baby boy, by what may become the death of me...TEETHING! I think.

Many of Leo's sypmtoms are similar to the ones I've been reading. It would explain a lot. The insane drooling. The constant chewing on of hands, my arm, and toys. The whining. The many late night waking when just a few weeks ago he was sleeping beautifully. The cold like syptoms of a runny nose and cough.

He's only three months! I know babies can teeth this early but geesh! I had teeth by the time I was 6 months. Three months! It shouldn't happen this early simply because mothers can't handle seeing their little ones suffer like this. It breaks my heart.

Any suggestions for me? Does it sound like teething? I haven't been able to get a good look at his gums yet. Any good remedies to help him with the pain? Help!

My Leon: Two month photos

I just finished up editing Leon's two month old photos today (he turns three months on May 1st). These are my favorites.

Chubby Cheekers:

My funny boy:

Stinker face:

Riding and Swinging

Today, Leo and I went on a walk. It was our first time using the stroller. We usually use the easy rider carrier but I thought today, being so wonderful out, would be a great day to do a test run. Leo did pretty good until the end but I think that was just because he was tired. After that, we spent some time on our porch swing which we both love! Here are some photos from today's adventures:

First time in the stroller. I wonder what he is thinking.

My smiling sweetie.

Swinging and still awake.

This is why I love the swing soo much.

Adorably asleep.

He woke up 5 minutes after I put him down...figures!

Well, Friday we closed on the house and then started painting that night. I hate to say it but it has been a very bitter sweet experience for me. I'm so glad to finally have a house. I hate that I can't spend every moment fixing it up. It needs so much works and my hands are full. It killed me on Friday to have my family and friends paint the house while I was at home taking care of Leon. However, I am so so so so grateful for their help. The paint job look so good especially compared to what it was like. It's just that I've been dreaming of doing this and then I have do have someone else do it all for me. I know that it'll get down, it is just going to take so much more time. I'm going to have to be patient...something I'm extremely bad at. I keep asking myself what did I get myself into?

There is so much left to do before me move on Saturday. I need to get everything packed in our apartment still. We need to clean the house really really well before we move. Kyle needs to get a mailbox set up. We also have a few church obligations we need to take care of this week! I'm feeling very overwhelmed!

Leo hasn't been sleeping as well. He used to only get up once and now he is getting up 3 to 4 times! I thought it was supposed to get better as time went by! It also hasn't helped that I haven't been able to sleep very well lately. My mind has been ticking every second with everything that I need to do. Things have been crazy so maybe that is just his way of reacting to it.

So...with all this craziness, my blog may be very neglected the next few week! just warning you!

My three hours alone

Tonight, Kyle took Leon to his parents so I could get some stuff around the house done without being interuppted. I can not beleive how much I got done in only three hours without the two of them here at home with me. I mean, it is insane! Here is all that I got done:

1. Ate dinner
2. Made brownies
3. Checked my email, blog, facebook, etc
4. Packed my craft closet, the rest of the book shelf, and some stuff in our room
5. Picked up the house a little
6. Took a shower (washed my hair AND shaved my legs)
7. Mosturized (much needed)
8. Blow dried my hair
9. Organized more stuff for packing
10. Checked out some insurance stuff for the Leon's Doctor
11. Wrote on my blog

In fact, they're still not home so I still have a few more moments to get something done. It honestly amazes me!

Thank You, Oprah!

Motherhood. The truth is that sometimes I ask myself "What in the world did you get yourself into? There is no way I'm doing this again" and then other times when my little Leon is sleeping so peacefully or grinning really big up at me, I think "this couldn't get any better". There is so much that comes with it and there is so much that gets taken away. It has been one of those days where every emotion of motherhood has gotten to me. I've wanted to cry (with happiness and frustration), laugh, go crazy, and everything in between. I started to have a slight panic attack as I was going down the cereal isle of the grocery store because I thought the little guy was going to scream his head off. Luckily that didn't happen but I can't help but want to make a mad dash to the exit when I think he might. I've beginning to think how on earth other women do it. It seems like so many of the mothers I know do it so gracefully.

When I got home from my surprisingly good trip to the grocery store, Oprah was on and guess what? Her show was all about Motherhood; the truth about motherhood. It was just what I needed. It was so good to hear other women, other mothers talk about their honest experiences. It helped me realize that there are so many going through the same things I am. What a relief. I'm not the only one. Now I just need to get a hold of that episode and have my husband watch it so maybe, just maybe he'll get a hint of how of I've been feeling. He has been gone in the evenings so much lately. He has no idea (even after I tell him) how much just a few minutes to myself (even just to cook dinner) means to me.

Anyway. Thank You, Oprah. I really needed that show today.