Today has been one of those days so far. Today I'm
just
plain
tired.
I'm tired of not getting more than 4 hours of sleep at a time.
I'm tired of getting up too early.
I'm tired of not finding anything to wear.
I'm tired of wearing my hair up in a ponytail because I don't have the time or energy to do anything else with it.
I'm tired of my husband being gone.
I'm tired of not knowing what Leon needs.
I'm tired of being in this house.
I'm tired of this house not being the way I want it to be RIGHT NOW.
I'm tired of complaining, being unsatisfied, and just feeling like this.
Just plain tired.
I knew that being a mom wouldn't be easy. I just didn't think it would be as hard as much as it has been lately. Maybe it is just me. Maybe it is just my attitude. I'm not looking for anybody to feel sorry for me but I just need to get this off my chest. Hopefully things will get better today. I really need them to get better today.
3 comments:
Just so you don't think I'm feeling sorry for you (which I am b/c I totally know what you are going through!) :), some days just have to be rotten in order for us to appreciate the awesome days! ;) Oh the joys of roller coaster days as a mother!
I hear ya girl. I never realized how difficult motherhood would really be until I was sleep deprived, out of shape, suffering from PPD and totally engorged!! Look at me now. heehee. Sometimes we just have to take life one day at a time, one hour at a time, and even one minute at a time. If u ever just need to vent u can always call me. I won't feel sorry for u I can just empathize with you! LOVE YA! ps. I hope I don't sound preachy that really wasn't my intent.
I just HAVE to say that you are the best looking "new mom" I've ever seen! Even when you have sweats on and your hair is in a ponytail, you look great! I only wish I would be so lucky! haha! If you ever want to just get out of the house but don't really have anything to do, you're more than welcome to come over here! I'm always up to roaming the mall or whatever, too, if you just want some "grown up" company! :)
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