I've been really fustrated with all the adjustments I've had to make since I've had Leo. Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy to have him in my life. I think I just thought I'd still be able to get a few things done. By the end of the day I'd be so frustrated and overwhelmed that I'd be mad at everything and everyone: Kyle, myself, and sometimes even little Leon. I hate having that bad attitude. So the other day I just decided not to expect to get anything done. I just told myself that I didn't need to do anything that day but take care of Leon and nothing else was important. That ended up being a pretty good day. I didn't expect anything from myself so when I did get things done I felt so good about it. And even Leo was in a really good mood. This little experiment made me realize what is really important and what isn't important. It's not important if dinner is made on time or the house is clean. It's not important if the bed is made or there is a massive pile of dirty laundry. What is important is that I'm taking care of my little guy and enjoying my time I have with him. He is growing up so fast and I don't want to miss out on it. Those other things will get done, just some other time. Yesterday, my mom came up to see us and I was telling her about all of this and she said to me: "No mother, even the really good ones, will say that they held their baby too much or that they spent too much time with them. They'll all say I wish I had spent more time with them. They grow up too fast." She is totally right. What really matters is that my little boy knows I love him and that I'm here for him and that I enjoy being with him. I know things will get easier and better. I just need to be patient.
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Hey Kelly! I totally hear you on this post. I expected to do a better job about remembering this the second time around, because I had just witnessed how fast time goes... but NOPE! I get way too consumed with what I want to accomplish and miss so many moments. My mom had this wall hanging when I was growing up and it said, "SO quiet down cobwebs and dust go to sleep... I'm rocking my baby, and baby's don't keep". It's always stuck with me. :-D
Congrats on the house! It's lovely! I can't wait to see what you do to make it your own. A word of advice: don't be hasty in choosing colors. lol. I picked hurriedly one day because we had people lined up to help us... let's just say I've since repainted the kitchen twice, and have bought paint to do the hallway! =) (I'm actually waiting on my kitchen to dry right now, so I can start the second coat!) But you could definitely see in your pics that the house has tons of potential- I love it!
Kelly, I'm really glad you document stuff like this. I have a feeling this perspective is going to be so helpful to me pretty soon. =)
I wish we lived closer.
You couldn't be more right! Sometimes I think back on what I accomplished that day, which in terms of chores, etc isn't very much, but then I remember that I spent some time with my kids doing something they wanted to do and I remember it's OK then! But it seems like every day I have to remind myself of this important concept! I can't remember who said it, a Church leader of some sort, but he said that things around the house will NEVER get done completely b/c more messes, etc always happen, so make sure we are putting our priorities in the right order! It's so great that you have realized that so soon and want to do that!
Even if you do finally get your house really clean there is always another dirty dish and always laundry. Besides I hear if you leave your bed unmade it decreases the level of allergens that get trapped in your bedding.haha. Before you know it Leo will be dressing himself and feeding himself and by then you'll probably have another baby and start all over again. Enjoy the stage of life that you are in and you will be truly happy. love you guys
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